21 Songs.

These songs are pretty significant because they were once on constant repeat as I went about life at one point or another. Some I haven’t listened to in a while, but I still have nostalgia when I listen to them. It’s strange how songs can bring about certain smells or insignificant memories. Hurricane by Parachute (and honestly the entire album) reminds of me of fall and Salvation by Gabriella Aplin reminds me of the winter months my first year at my community college. Pictures Of You and Your Hand In Mine reminds me of the marathons of Friday Night Lights and Robin Hood. Butterfly by BTS is a shout out to all things Korean, but this song was probably the first one I heard that didn’t require a music video to watch with it because it’s beautiful by itself. Breathe Me by Sia reminds me of all things Jane Austen and don’t ask me why certain songs associate with such random memories, but they do and for that I love them. Stop and Stare by OneRepublic was my theme song when I started college and had to return to my old high school job. No One by Aly & AJ is a shout out to the Ice Princess and Princess Diaries and yes, I still listen to it on my playlist. Demons by Imagine Dragons was in a trailer for some really awful movie that was not good at all and I couldn’t stop listening to it afterwards. The trailer was better then the movie.

Salvation by Gabriella Aplin
Demons by Imagine Dragons
All This Time by OneRepublic
High Hopes by Kodaline
Say It Now by The Afters
Hunger by Ross Copperman
Your Hand In Mine by Explosions In The Sky
No One by Aly & AJ
Breathe Me by Sia
Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol
Come Back When You Can by Barcelona
Hurricane by Parachute
Find My Way Back by Eric Arjes
Ships In The Night by Mat Kearney
Staring At It by SafetySuit
Pictures Of You by The Last Goodnight
Butterfly by BTS
Everybody’s Got Somebody But Me by Hunter Hayes
When I Was Younger by Liz Lawrence
Stop And Stare by OneRepublic
Chariots by Jacob Lee

“Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the space between the notes and curl my back to loneliness.” – Maya Angelou

A Single White Girl

I hate reading blogs about how to be single. I don’t like it when girls will post “Jesus is My Valentine” on Valentines Day or clog Pinterest with “How To Be Single 101”, “10 Fun Thing To Do While Your Single”, “Solo Date Ideas” and “Being Single Isn’t a Status, It Means Your Strong & Independent”.

It’s like, thanks for giving me a list. I’m glad to know there are 10 whole things a single person can do for fun. It just seems that single people, woman to be more specific, find a way to either embrace singleness with a sort of defiance like “SCREW MEN!” type of attitudes and then others are like kidding themselves by saying “Oh, prince charming will come for me eventually”.

He’s not coming on a white steed because 1) Princes don’t exist (they do, but come on, they usually come in the form of party boy Prince Harry) and 2) Your not a princess. Stop kidding yourself.

Also being single isn’t some kind of “choice”, it’s just a circumstance we women find ourselves in that we either can accept with grace and poise or we can eye every eligible man we encounter with some kind of barbaric insanity because we have been labeled “single and alone”.

I’m not saying I have never said those two lines above…I have. A lot actually because there is some kind of humorous sarcasm behind it that means “I’m saying this because it could or could not be true…HAHA. Just kidding…or am I?”

Let’s have a moment of silence and a few tears because this dude doesn’t exist in real life.

You know what annoys me? Is when all of your friends are single, but then that one friend gets a boyfriend and you never see them again, and all of their posts on social media are based on the sole fact that so-so is in a relationship and look at those ADORABLE pictures and quoting song lyrics that just fit their relationship PERFECTLY.

I guess this post isn’t helping to prove my point, because I am the average single white girl who wants a boyfriend but doesn’t have one.

I’m embracing my singleness, but I’m not going to say I don’t want a boyfriend. I’m not going to say that if I wait long enough then he will just magically appear. Because like everything, you must give effort and to be honest, I’m not giving any effort right now. Why? Because there is sort of big thing called “time”. I’m a list person, and I’m not saying I can put “oh at so and so time I will get a boyfriend” because I know it doesn’t work like that.

I find saying “get a boyfriend” sounds shallow, it’s like “yep, going pick me one of those up at the store”. You know what? I’m just going to settle for a Tom-like attitude from Parks and Rec.

I’m single, but I am not alone.

YOU ARE AWESOME. Single, taken, waiting, being overly optimistic while waiting, or way to pessimistic. This Valentines Day eat those chocolates from yo Mom because she loves you and everyone else does and someday someone special will love you more then all those people combined.

Jesus isn’t your valentine, but He loves you way more then your Mom or future spouse. Don’t ever forget that.

Also, since it’s just another Valentines Day aka Singles Awareness Day.

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The Boy Bands & The Man Bands

Let’s be honest…

You all knew this was coming.

If you don’t know who 1D is, let me enlighten you.

1D is a boy singing group consisting of 5 no, sorry 4 members of the names ~~Zayn~~, Harry, Niall, Louie, and Liam.

And let’s be honest yet again, because I’m nothing but, if you don’t know who One Direction is then you probably wouldn’t be reading this.

Now there is 5SOS, a boy band with four members of the names Calum, Michael, Luke, and Ashton. Note I said band because they are in fact a band who are in fact boys who do play there own instruments and sing.

1D is more like a glorified Acapella group. But I’m not batching! I love One Dierection (as the British say it you know). I love their songs.

I like 5SOS too, although…they have problems…and so does 1D.

“Baby you light up my world like nobody else.”

I’m not making fun. I promise.

I can’t help but find this whole fan girl thing slightly amusing. I must admit, I had my fan girl stage in life when it came to Big Time Rush (may that fandom rest in peace).

But, in the other corner of the ring we have the man bands, the bands that are mature and sing about things other then girls and romances gone wrong. For example, OneRepublic, The Script and American Authors (all of which I saw in one concert haha I don’t know how the roof stayed on under all that awesomeness but anyways…)

Note, I took this from Twitter and I found this really funny. I don’t claim any rights to it whatsoever, so please, whoever these two people are! Don’t sue me….

So, I guess what I’m trying to say is, you can’t really compare these two types of bands because eventually the boy bands, might become man bands…

Or not.

They might just run their course and never be seen again like N’Sync…or they could be like the Backstreet Boys *coughs awkwardly*

That seemed slightly pessimistic, but I really don’t see One Direction lasting very long. Honestly though, they can only go one direction…they can’t all go in opposite directions…

Or can they?

No, I don’t see that happening.

Wait.

Anyways, moving on…

Of course, let’s be honest, boy bands seem to lack sophisticated lyrics like the man bands do.

Examples:

Hey, hey!
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey – 5SOS “She Looks So Perfect”

I walked a minute in your shoes –
They never would’ve fit
I figured there’s nothing to lose.
I need to get
Some perspective on these words before I write them down
You’re an island and my ship has run aground – One Republic “All We Are”

Okay, a bit of an exaggeration on the boy band’s lyrical abilities, but I think I’ve made my point.

Like honestly, any song you ever have loved was probably written or co-written by Ryan Tedder.

Anyways, I know that I have been primarily focusing on OneRepublic in this post, so let me give recognition to all off the other man bands: Snow Patrol, The Script, American Authors, Imagine Dragons, The Fray, Barcelona, Coldplay, SafetySuit, Kodaline, and oh so many more.

Well, I hope you enjoyed this random and pointless post 🙂 Please go and check out all these bands if you haven’t already 😉

Back To School. Again.

Here we go again. The shuffling of papers, the “oh my goodness, do I have a test today?” moments of panic.

The awkward silences with your classmates, where your inner Jim wants to come out and stare at the camera that is documenting your oh so boring life…

The countless hours of teachers lecturing you on things you don’t really care about…

You will go into self denial after every test, saying “if only I had enough time to study.”

Oh please…we all know you were watching Netflix.

At the beginning of finals you will overeat because of anxiety…

and then at the end you will eat for comfort…

Everyday you will wonder why you are doing this to yourself.

Until of course, you get an A on that test and then you get all like…

But then midterms come around…

But you know what? When your sitting in class day dreaming about throwing that one hundred dollar looseleaf textbook against that dry erase board with the teacher’s almost non-legible handwriting …

Just remember to hold it together until after finals.

But don’t forget…

Random Rambling

Ah, life is good, and wonderful, and when your driving home late at night from work, thanking Jesus for such a wonderful and beautiful life, even though you had to work late, and your completely sore from all the lifting and bending you had to do that day, and even though your gas tank is almost empty again, even though you just filled it a couple days ago, your still completely happy.

Because I’m happy. For no reason, just despite every worry and deep down fear, I am happy just because.

This week I went to the Mall of America, and shopped till the idea of looking at anything with a price tag was revolting.

I went to a concert in Downtown Minneapolis with OneRepublic, The Script, and American Authors. I didn’t get any good pictures, and all of my videos are ruined by my horrible singing, and the camera is tilted the wrong way.

But that’s okay, because it was still the best concert I’ve ever been too, and I can’t even listen to “I Lived” by OneRepublic without crying my eyes out because I love them so much and want to go back to that Tuesday night and sing along with them again.

This is my only good picture of OneRepublic :( — This is my only good picture of OneRepublic 😦

When I got home on Wednesday, my sister and I went to a cafe downtown with our dear friend Kat, who is leaving for the summer and then going back to New York.

Then on Thursday, I had to work all day. Which was fine…except I wanted to go outside and play in the rain, but of course, that isn’t acceptable behavior…especially when your at work. So I sat and stuffed curly fries depressingly in my mouth while at lunch and yes…I used three packs of mayo for dipping sauce because ranch costs money and I already spent a dollar extra to put lettuce and tomato on my sandwich.

Not like you need to know that.

The next day I had to go to the hospital and do rehabilitation for my job, in which they make you watch a video on proper back care, and then you have to go down into the creepy basement of the building and lift and push things and do squats.

I’m still really sore.

Then I went to the mall with my mom and lil sister, and I was spontaneous and got doubles in my ears. Waste of money? Probably. Confidence boost? Yes.

Then I went to work.

And now we are back to the beginning of this rather drawn out and unnecessary post.

Another My Obsession post is in the works and who knows what else will happen. Life is crazy busy right now.

~ Tru

Health Report

Yes, I am well aware that it is 1:00 AM. Don’t judge me; I had two cups of coffee for no particular reason other then the fact that I wanted to…and I’m slightly hungry but too lazy to eat and I probably should go to bed.

Yeah, but who cares.

I’m just YOLO-ing it up these days and I decided that sleep isn’t necessary unless you are sick, which is what I basically spent my entire weekend doing.

Sleeping and being sick that is.

I had a cold/flu.

Just to let everyone know, waking up to the feeling of barf coming up your throat and reeling over the side of the couch at 5:00 AM is not what I call a good morning. I know you don’t need specific details of me barfing, so I’ll spare you the mental image (if I haven’t already given you one that is).

So anyways, I missed two days of work and for the first time in forever (I know you were singing that song from Frozen in your head as you read that) I have four days off from everything.

It’s going to be so hard going back to work because I’m really enjoying not working. Who would of thought!

Despite the fact of barfing and having a sore throat and just feeling altogether awful and gross, I really enjoyed being sick. Like, I LOVE watching Netflix and sitting around in my PJs all day. I mean, that is seriously living the life for me.

I love being lazy way too much. I love drinking Throwback Pepsi and eating soup and crackers. I love sleeping in till 1:00 PM even if my entire day is basically gone by the time I wake up.

But alas! I can’t be sick forever, and being lazy won’t pay my bills (sadly, I really wish I did though).

Anyways, that was just a random health report for you all. I’m sure you were all dying to know.

I apologize to all of the people that got sick because of me. I’ll try to quarantine myself next time 🙂

– Trudi

Back to School.

School starts tomorrow. In a way it feels like it’s time to go back. Time to stay up till 2 AM studying for tests. Time to write useless papers that you will probably hide under the stacks of textbooks that will never be opened again, and the notebooks full of scribbles and words that don’t make sense anymore but at one time did.

Long story short, it’s time to go back to stuffing our faces with food and sitting for long periods of time.

Who am I kidding. I do that everyday.

But it will all be just fine.

Because you can’t replace that good old feeling of accomplishment and exhaustion after each semester.

~ Trudi