In The Now.

My life so far has been nothing but busy. I’m all over the place and wired on coffee. I’m already facing another busy week starting tomorrow, and the only thing that is keeping me motivated is that it will all end in about…6 weeks. Thanksgiving break is coming up, and then after that just a couple more weeks of school and then Trudi is going to be hibernate for five weeks until another semester full of bad weather begins.

Woohoo.

I’m seriously so hyper right now. Maybe it’s just the stress of two big assignment in one week coming up and the coffee.

Now, here is something totally random…but not really. I know I said I’m not obsessed with One Direction, and I’m not, trust me. But…

Aren’t they just too darn cute???

Last night I watched Titanic. Every time I get anxiety and just want to go cry in a corner. Mostly because Jack dies. Isn’t that awful? A gigantic ship goes down after hitting an ice berg and I’m bawling my eyes out because Leonardo DiCaprio froze to death. Rose didn’t deserve him. Yet, I feel that way about every female lead that gets some cute, sweet guy. That movie just tears me to pieces in general though. Such an awful event. This movie and Pearl Harbor make me cry every time.

Anyways, I am going to go eat supper now. Have a wonderful week everyone!

Happiness.

Happiness…is simplicity.
When you finish that dreaded biology exam.
When you’re singing at the top of your lungs in the car with the radio blaring (even though people are probably starring at you).
When the leaves are turning colors and it’s slightly chilly out.
When you go to Starbucks and the lady spells your name right (okay, she asked how it was spelled…but it still made me happy).
When you walk out of school on a Thursday night knowing the weekend has started.

Is that what happiness is? Is happiness really that simple?

I wonder if the world has elevated happiness to a level where it can’t be reached. Yes, happiness is one of the many words that we have made too complicated for us to grasp. We become dissatisfied with the word because we watch movies and read books all about happiness and we’re just left empty inside because we don’t know where to find that kind of happiness.

But that’s just it; we think we have to find it.

Happiness is a butterfly, which when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you – Nathaniel Hawthorne

I don’t think that happiness is a destination that we have to find. Happiness is a feeling, rather fleeting at times, but that is what happiness is. We can’t hold onto it and carry it around with us all the time. Nobody and nothing is going to make us happy. It’s what we make inside ourselves. When we sit down quietly, it will alight upon us like a butterfly, but trust me, once you move the butterfly will fly away. That’s what happiness is, it’s just a flutter that comes and goes.

~ Trudi

My Life Right Now.

My life right now is full of papers, sticky notes, coffee, exams, and teachers that are out to get me. The emotional roller coaster I go through every week is exhausting, and by the time Friday finally gets here, I can’t even look at that bright blue backpack propped up against the bookshelf. I shake my head and wonder why I wanted to go to college so badly…but, I don’t know where else I would rather be at the moment…so I keep pressing on.

Although at first I was plagued by fear of my Russian piano teacher, I’m enjoying playing piano again. It’s actually nice to have something easy and familiar along with all my difficult (I won’t say hard) classes.

So, on this rainy, dreary day, I’m going to make some more coffee and *maybe* do homework. I’m going to revise my critical synthesis, overflowing with sloppy handwriting and students opinions (gotta love peer review). Maybe I’ll go for a walk, because one thing I’ve learned in college is that sitting is actually really hard on the body. No joke.

Who am I kidding? I’m not going to go on a walk. I’m too lazy. Walking across the street to McDonalds was hard enough that one day.

Well, this is my life right now.

Things to look forward to this month:
A review (by yours truly) of Divergent by Veronica Roth!
A birthday post. Yes, somebody is officially going to be an “adult” next week.
And much more! Have a great weekend everybody!

~ Trudi